After the loss of our baby girl last May, my husband and I took some time to heal and enjoy us. After a much needed vacation in August, we agreed it was time to start trying again. Once we returned in September we had a go at it not knowing how long it would take to conceive. Well we found out on October 2, 2015 it happened just as quickly as the last. We tried and bada bing, bada boom we were pregnant.

I was warned by doctors I would feel anxious after what happened with our last pregnancy and that couldn’t have been closer to the truth. I was so happy to be carrying another baby but petrified that we would lose this one too. Most pregnant women don’t think of all the things that could go wrong until something has gone terribly wrong. We were optimistic but decided to wait to share the news until we were absolutely sure this baby was healthy and was going to make it. A series of tests were set up almost immediately, I was considered high risk, and doctors wanted to monitor every little thing. I felt comfortable seeing baby on the monitor almost every other week at my doctor appointments. Measurements looked good every time I saw the doc but the confirmation I needed wouldn’t be received until the Amniocentises in December. The first trimester seemed to drag because I was just so incredibly nervous. I questioned every symptom and lack of symptoms. I drove myself nuts!

However, on January 11th at 8:34pm we received the call we had been waiting for. Baby girl Cardoso was healthy! I thought, “It’s really happening this time. We are actually going to have a baby.” David and I hugged each other so tight and I of course cried tears of pure joy. I couldn’t wait to share the happy news and began to make phone calls the next day to family and shared the news on social media with friends. My next ultrasound was the following week with my primary OB and this was the first time I allowed myself to connect to the baby on the screen. A tear rolled down my cheek as I watched her wiggle around and move her arms and legs. I can’t stop resting my hand on my tummy, and every now and then I’ll feel her kick to let me know everything is ok in there. Oh it’s all just so surreal.

Today I am heading to Babies R Us to register for the shower which is set for April 24th. It’s so exciting! David too is over the moon–I can just tell. Our due date is June 9, 2016. In 19 weeks we will be parents. God is good.