My First Baby Journal

  • 1/6/15 – Took a pregnancy test and it said positive! Told David and my best friend.
  • 1/7/15 – Scheduled my first prenatal appointment. January 30th I will be 6 weeks and 6 days along! Nurse said we should hear a heartbeat at that appointment. I also took another test just to make sure. Yep, still pregnant!
  • 1/8/15 – Revealed the news to my friend who is due a month before me. She was really excited we would be sharing this experience together. Now thinking of ways to reveal the news to my parents. It has to be really special. So many thoughts flooding my mind right now.
  • 1/9/15 – Had blood drawn. Positive for pregnancy! Even though I knew from the urine test, this conformed the already exciting news.
  • 1/13/15 – Heard some scary news about my friends pregnancy that almost had me in tears until she got to the point that the baby was okay – they heard a heartbeat. Thank you Jesus!
  • 1/25/15 – All my girlfriends pretty much figured out my not so well kept secret when they didn’t see me with a glass of wine in my hand for the 3rd baby shower we attended this month. I had a feeling everyone was already talking about it so when I was approached and asked the question, I simply let the cat out of the bag.
  • 1/26/15 – Feeling exhausted. No energy at all. Purchased some Swiss pressed decaf coffee. Can’t wait until it arrives. My coffee cravings are out of control!
  • 1/27/15 – My sister sends me a text message that says, “Any baby news yet?! : ) I swear I feel like I’m gonna get a call from you about it soon. LOL” I called her immediately and let her in on my little secret. Planning how to break the news to my parents this week. My mom is already suspicious since my sister will be joining us all for dinner.
  • 1/28/15 – Weirdest cravings going on. Lately it’s been angel food cake, fruit snacks, teddy grahams, and lots of fresh fruit. Hey at least one out of 3 is healthy. Still experiencing cramping too which scares me every time I feel that uncomfortable pain. Officially 7 weeks on the 31st of this month. 5 more weeks and I am out of the first trimester. Crazy to think. David has been reading the Expectant Father book I bought him most mornings and a little more at night before he goes to bed. Love that he reads this book because at least he knows what is going on with all the changes occurring with me.
  • 1/29/15 -Spilled the beans to my parents tonight while were out to dinner at The Pint House in Orange. My sister was also there and caught the reveal on video.
  • 1/30/15 – Had my first appt today. Heard the heartbeat, saw the baby on an ultrasound. Found out I’m a few days behind what I thought. Today I’m 6 wks and 4 days.
  • 2/1/15 – First Super Bowl Sunday. So not the same. It was actually boring sober. Cocktails totally make the Superbowl something worth looking forward to. Fact!
  • 2/3/15 – Working like crazy. Long hours now to pay off later. It’s 3:30pm and barely had a chance to break for lunch. Mediterranean food is calling my name!
  • 2/16/15 – Still craving frozen blueberry waffles with any type of jam spread on top and fruit. Can’t seem to get enough fruit!
  • 2/17/15 – Scheduled my ultrasound to find out the gender! Appt on March 31st at 1pm. I am so excited!!!! I will be 15 weeks at that time and out of the 1st trimester. Can’t believe how fast time is going by!
  • 3/7/15 – Announced the news to the entire family today on my grandpa’s 89th birthday. Everyone was so excited. I was surprised how emotional I got. I cried and felt my body trembling a bit. It was such a wonderful feeling.
  • 3/16/15 – Woke up today so extremely tired, from what I do not know. Woke up, made breakfast, fell asleep with David on the couch, we both then went back to our bed and slept for another few hours. Finally got up again around 1pm to shower. Headed out to try a new Italian restaurant by our house. Went back home and rested some more. No energy whatsoever today.
  • 3/16/15 – This week is the week when we find out the gender of our bun in the oven. Is it Wednesday yet?!?
  • 3/18/15 – Had an early gender ultrasound today at 13 weeks. I was 100% sure we were having a boy. So surprised to find out it was a girl! Would have been happy either way but so excited about the news. Will wait patiently for my doctor to confirm the gender at 20 weeks.
  • 3/19/15 – heard from two people that they were told at 13 weeks they were having a girl and it turned out to be a boy. Yikes! Definitely Holding off on buying anything girly until I receive confirmation from my doctor. Will be excited either way!
  • 3/23/15 – This pee’ing business is no joke! I get up at least 5-6 times a night to use the restroom. Definitely haven’t had a good solid night of sleep in a while. Doctor wants me to have 10-12 glasses of water each day. I might as well live in the restroom!
  • 3/30/15 – Doctor gave me the okay to have another gender ultrasound done to make sure it still showed girl. I absolutely could not wait and scheduled an appointment during my lunch hour the same day. Went alone because David told me I should just wait 4 more weeks to have it done at Kaiser instead of spending another $30. I just couldn’t stand it! It had to be booked that day. This time I was told by the ultrasound tech that she saw the 3 little lines which indicted the lady part. IT’S STILL A GIRL! My Amazon wish list is filling up rather quickly with nothing but girly items for my baby girl.
  • 4/4/15 – Had a bit of a scare and had to be seen in ER. Was told by the ER doc that there were signs of a possible future miscarriage and sent me on my way home.
  • 4/5/15 – Easter Sunday. Went back to the hospital to see a doctor because the same symptoms were occurring and this time the doctor (different doctor) did a more thorough check and told me the symptoms I was experiencing were normal and to take it easy for the next two days and not to lift anything heavy for a while. This doc said there were no signs of possible miscarriage and that the ER doc should have never said that. So relieved, I went home, missed Easter with the family, and stayed off my feet.
  • 4/20/15 – Had another chance to catch a glimpse of our baby girl today during my anatomy ultrasound. Amazed to finally see a side profile of our jewel. Her little button nose and lips are too cute! Ultrasound tech said that her measurements were coming in at 17 weeks instead of 18 weeks and that my doctor may decide to change my due date once she receives the results of the ultrasound which would push her due date to 9/27/15. Closer to mommy’s birthday. Daddy will be quite happy since he didn’t want to share his birthday anyways. Only child syndrome!
  • 4/21/15 – Woke up today with a sore throat and body aches. Decided to work from home. This is the first time I can’t really take any meds other than Tylenol, Robitussin, or Claritin. Making sure I get lots of fluids through me to wash out this bug ASAP! Ugh, I really dislike being sick.
  • 4/22/15 – Officially placed my gym membership on hold until after the baby. Now it is up to me to get back on track with my eating habits and make sure I get some cardio in on a daily basis. Scared to have done this but know it was the right decision. Operation at home boot camp in full effect.
  • 4/28/15 – One of the worst days of the pregnancy thus far. We were called in to meet with a counselor before our scheduled level 2 ultrasound. We were told that my blood results were awful for a lack of better words. A very unusual test result where literally everything came back with the lowest most worst scores possible. Had an ultrasound and was told that our baby had not grown at all in 10 days which was very concerning for the doctor. We were told that any growth delay over 2 weeks would mean that the baby is failing to thrive. All measurements of our baby were in the 3 percentile of where they needed to be and that 97% of all babies this far along were much larger. Most women are diagnosed with IUGR later in the pregnancy and they are often times induced to get the baby out so the baby won’t lose too much oxygen. Clearly at 19 weeks my baby could not live outside the womb and survive. Chances of our pregnancy ending early are highly likely. We were also told that our unborn baby could be born with spinabifida since they saw a gap in the spinal cord. Since the doc said there could be a 20-30% chance they were wrong about all this, they suggested we have an amnio done. Scared, confused, and nervous I had an amniocentesis performed to gather as much info as possible to see if there were any other factors hindering the growth of our daughter. Will have results back on Friday.
  • 5/1/15 -Received a call from a counselor and was told that the preliminary results for the amniocentesis came back and there were no signs of any abnormalities with out baby girl. So far everything looked good but we still have to hang tight for the final results on the 12th. Also, spoke with the doctor and she said if our little one doesn’t catch up in growth by our next ultrasound on the 19th we can expect there to be issues with the placenta which brings on a whole other set of problems. If that’s the case, I’ll be considered high risk and will need to come in 2x a week for the remainder of the pregnancy to check for a strong heartbeat each time. If her heartbeat becomes irregular then she’ll need to be delivered early. This scares me immensely but I have to remain strong and just hope and pray that she is strong enough to pull through all of this. Feeling her little kicks daily are so comforting to know she’s alright for now.
  • 5/5/15 – Received a gift card to Burke Williams today from my sweet cousins. Feeling special and it could not have come at a better time. Boy do I need this right about now. Pregnancy massage here I come!
  • 5/6/15 – My Aunt Carolyn drove all the way to my house to deliver my favorite Lemon Ice-Cream pie. It was so great to visit with her and eat one of my favorite desserts.
  • 5/8/15 – Final amnio results are in. Our worst fear became our reality. A rare chromosome was found, one that is typically only found in babies who miscarry within the 1st trimester. Our baby is not going to make it. This chromosome was the reason for the unexplainable blood results. Coping with this news in my own way. We have a follow up appointment on Tuesday, doctor does not think we will hear a heartbeat on that day. Preparing for it the best I can. God has another plan. I am just blessed to have felt her movements and carry her for as long as I have. I pray that God sends her soul back to me in a stronger body. She is already so loved without ever even living on earth. Daddy and Mommy will never forget. Sunday is mother’s day. This holiday will never be the same for me, never. I will always think of my sweet baby.
  • 5/12/15 – Heart valve is contracting still but heart muscles have stopped. Will be monitoring her heart each day this week until it stops. This is the final week I will carry my baby in my tummy.

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